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The past month has been extremely eventful. I tendered my resignation, attended interviews with two companies (a funny thing happened at one interview where I met an ex-colleague, and he immediately called up my hubby to tell him to pass the following message to me: “Don’t join!”), had a few rounds of ‘talks’ with my boss’s boss which ended up with my resignation getting converted to a 5 month sabbatical with an open offer to either return to my job anytime, or if I still wanted…to proceed with my resignation. I got a job offer from one of the companies I’d interviewed with and when I decided to decline, was asked to reconsider and also to ask if hubby would like to join that company as well (!!).

Right now, I’m 7 days away from commencing my unpaid leave. I’ve cleared all my work, cleaned up my files in my PC, deleted my personal emails….am just counting down the days till my long-awaited BREAK. Which I feel I sorely need after all the events in the past month. I feel exhausted and drained. You’d think resigning would be an easy enough task…well, it’s not! While I am very grateful and appreciative of my boss’s (and her boss’s) confidence in my abilities, I wonder if I can live up to their expectations of me. Which makes me feel, in a way, undeserving of their efforts to retain me. And you’d think declining a job offer would be easy as well! The HR personnel that I spoke to requested several times for me to reconsider, while pointing out that the prospects at Company B is very good, etc. While dad told me to me firm and polite when declining, I felt my resolve crumbling and I ended up agreeing to reconsider, even though I knew in my heart that I won’t want to join them. Sigh.

While many people are searching for employment, I feel kind of guilty that I have a choice of two to choose from, both of which pays pretty well…and I don’t want neither. Am I being really really stupid?!? All the reasons I used to justify my resignation suddenly looks so feeble and unwarranted. But just when I start to think that my current company is still a place that I want to work in, etc….something happens here and it just reminds me of why I wanted to resign in the first place.

So, right now, I’ve decided to push all my confusion and indecision to the back of my head and just enjoy the first month of my break. To quote Scarlett O’ Hara: I’ll think about it tomorrow. After all, tomorrow is another day.

On to lighter topics…tomorrow’s the launch of the 6th Harry Potter book: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince! Potter-parties will be thrown in various bookstores around Malaysia (and around the world), and I will be one of the excited ones who will be queuing up before 7.01am to get my hands on a copy of the book. Haven’t quite decided if I’m going to Kinokuniya at KLCC or Times Bookstore at the nearby Bangsar Shopping Centre. When book 5 came out, hubby brought me to Kinokuniya, and the atmosphere there was amazing. Loads and loads of people lining up until the line snaked around the perimeter of the 4th floor KLCC balcony, and when the ‘witching’ hour drew close, you could feel the excitement buzzing in the air!

According to plan, I’ll probably be starting Japanese lessons in August at Ringo language centre in SS2. Mum has advised me to take up Mandarin as well (FYI…can speak, cannot read, cannot write!), so will probably start the lessons around the same time. Yoga is also on my to-do list (probably back to Jiva Yoga), as is a long overdue revision of my Feng Shui and Bazi course notes! And if time and money doesn’t run out, I’d like to start dancing lessons too…hopefully at The Dance Space @ Plaza Damas.

With any luck…I’ll be able to accomplish…err…ONE of the things I planned to do? =)