Full circle
May 2005: I reached my all time low at work. Work was crazy. I was frustrated and fast losing interest and passion in what I was doing. The only thing that kept me going for a short while longer was a good boss and two great colleagues. I was stuck with a portfolio that was no longer supposed to be mine, but there was no one to give it to. How did I get rid of it, and cleanly? I resigned.
May 2006: I’ve reached my new all time low at work again. Work is crazy, again. I am extremely frustrated and have totally lost interest and passion in what I’m doing. The portfolio that I thought I got rid off? It’s back like a bad penny. And again, I’m stuck cause there is no one to pass it to even though it’s no longer supposed to be under my supervision.
In one year, I’ve found myself back to the exact same spot and facing the same predicament. And it sucks. Work stopped being fun a year ago, and things have definitely not improved. At least then, I had a life. I still left at a decent time, I don’t work on weekends and my mind shuts off after I leave the office. Now, I still leave at a decent time most of the times…but I send work home to do cause I just can’t bear being in the office. I go back on weekends. And the worst thing?? My mind doesn’t shut off when I leave the office. Work is the first thing I think off when I wake up, it’s constantly on my mind during lunch, after work, on Saturdays, on Sundays. It’s ridiculous. And while this is ok if you’re totally passionate about your work, I’m not.
And when you no longer believe in what you do…why go on doing it?
